I’m still waiting for him. Still Sexless in Seattle…14 months tomorrow. That’s not to say I’ve not gotten SOME action, but no intercourse.
In April, I ended up in a hotel room with Lincoln after a night of bar hopping which left me completely wasted. I was talking a little bit of trash I guess which is why we ended up there, but in the end I didn’t give up the goods. He went down on me (though I barely remember), and I gave him some hand action, but then I refused to go further and passed out. We woke up 4 hours later and he said he had to go so I started getting dressed. He pulled me down on the bed and tried to take off my panties but I refused him again. He was NOT a happy camper. We’ve talked a little and actually hung out again a few weeks ago for the first time since that episode, but he doesn’t really appear to be genuinely interested in me. He’s always been all talk and no action. He SAYS he likes me, but doesn’t show it. He’s SAID he’d take me to dinner, but has never done it. Most likely he was just trying to get into my pants. Well, it didn’t work. I’m not mad at him though.
Caesar is still Caesar. He’s still my boss and he’s still so wishy-washy that it’s hard to read him and it frustrates me. One minute he’s giving me the cold shoulder, the next minute he’s being flirtatious. Lately, he’s not answered hardly any of my texts so I told him the week before last that I’m not going to bother anymore since he ignores me 98% of the time. And fittingly, he ignored that one.
That was when he told me that I need to understand that he’s never going to hook up with me while I work for him. I told him I’ll leave him alone then. YET, at work he goes on to talk about how nice my lips are and asking if he can “borrow” them and making suggestive tongue gestures at me behind other people’s backs…telling me he wants me to sit on his face, etc…Like, okay asshole, if you’re not going to fuck me then shut the fuck up and stop playing games. He pushes me away then lures me back in…pushes me away and lures me back in. I think I’m done being a yo-yo for the moment though. Fuck it. I’ve been going back and forth with him for 3 years now.
Of course…I’ve faltered a few times since I made that resolution, but I haven’t texted him in 3 days now so I’m off to a good start. He hasn’t been to work this week, which is great because it’s easier to pretend you don’t want someone when you don’t have to look at him or hear him.
I had a casual date on the Monday before last. LC is a distant coworker who added me on Facebook ages ago. We conversed on there a couple of times and he even offered me his number, but I never used it. I found him attractive from what I could see in his pictures (I couldn’t recall ever having seen him in person), but I figured he was just another one trying to get some ass or whatever.
Well in the last couple of weeks I’d been seeking work-related advice and insight from him since he’s a higher-up, and he’s been very attentive and helpful. That led to texting and flirting and eventually we made plans to hang out. We met up at a restaurant on that Monday evening and had dinner.
He’s attractive, overall. Nice hair, beautiful skin (it looked like he had on makeup as smooth and clear as it looked…he didn’t, of course), and he had on a nice suit ensemble (he was coming straight from work). He’s funny and charismatic and seems fairly intelligent. Once we warmed up to each other, it was a good time. We were there for over 3 hours.
The only thing is, his teeth are…not the most pleasant. And I feel bad for saying that because my teeth aren’t perfect by any means. However, I do have a nice smile. And that’s all I require from a man…a nice smile. A mouth I’d like to imagine kissing and being wrapped around my vulva. Minor tooth imperfections can even be charming. But his grill is a little off. I only got a brief look at his teeth when he first walked in. He doesn’t seem to smile with teeth much and I suppose it’s because he’s self-conscious about them.
Also…he’s in his late 30s and has two pre-teen children, which is fine. But he got a vasectomy years ago. So clearly he’s not interested in having more children. It’s not like I want to have a baby tomorrow, but, as I’m in my late 20s and I know I DEFINITELY want to reproduce one day, I’m starting to judge men these days not only as potential companions for me, but also as potential fathers for my future child(ren). Men who don’t want to have any more babies are basically out of the running. And as I have a thing for older men, that applies to a lot of them because they’ve already had their kids and their kids are old as shit and they most likely don’t want anymore. But if they haven’t had any vasectomies, then the chance is always there…
But I don’t know, LC is still cool though. Despite any physical hangups I have, he’s still attractive as a whole and I enjoyed myself with him. He’s been sending silly little texts since and even asked when I’m taking HIM to dinner (as if!) a couple of days ago, so I might hang out with him sooner rather than later…